I fucking hate that I can't control how jealous I get sometime. Even two months later I'm still hung up on what happened between James and I. I don't even have feelings for him, I just wish I could stop thinking about it and feeling so awkward around him. I haven't even been to dinner since I got back 5 days ago because he might be there, and there are so little people around now that I can't really ignore him.
I may have checked Sloth on that Facebook quiz thing, and it's true, but really I'm guilty of all of them.
Sloth, because I put off my work as often as I can, I don't look after myself & I sleep in hours past I'm supposed to.
Envy, which I feel whenever I see a girl prettier than me or with better clothes than me or with a talent that I could never hope to have or ever be bothered to work for.
Lust, which never really goes away. Because I'm a teenage girl and I'm surrounded with people I can't have.
Gluttony, because I love food more than most people.
Wrath, because even the tiniest things anger me, especially the things that don't really matter. Thinks links to Envy too.
Greed, because I'm never completely happy with what I have.
Pride, because I feel superior when I get a better grade than someone, even people I consider friends.
And today on the street the old Jesus-loving bible-basher that stands on Lambton Quay everyday, without fail, called me a sinner and told me I'm going to hell. And maybe I am.
I think the real way the 'sins' work, is that it's only sin if you DENY that that sin is in you. What adult human ISN'T guilty of:
ReplyDeleteenjoying a sleep in or putting off something,
wanting something someone else has,
enjoying sex,
enjoying food,
being angry at something or someone,
wanting MORE,
and having a sense of achievement of something they have or have done?
Don't worry so much. Hell doesn't even exist ;)