I never becoming emotionally or physically invested in anyone ever again.
I don't even know why I care so much that he now has a girlfriend.
It was one night. I was drunk. We're not friends. I barely even know the guy.
But I just hate that feeling I get when I feel underappreciated, or that other people are better than me in any way.
Sometimes I just wish it hadn't happened. I hear people talking about how desperate a girl must be to get with a guy she doesn't know, and I know those comments aren't directed at me, but it really makes me feel bad. Regardless of how much I'd had to drink, I knew what was going to happen before I'd even had one cup of vodka- it was just obvious. You know how sometimes you just tell what someone's thinking? I'm actually quite proud of the way I can interpret people sometimes. Namely guys. Even when they're not being very obvious.
Ugh, I'm rambling.
Anyway. I'd better lie down in my bed of pain and read and then try to get some sleep. And try not to think too much.
Or maybe I'll get a sandwich.
Goodnight :) x
I bet the people saying that have done something similar to you rosie. I guess all you have to do is learn from you mistake, if that's what you are considering it as, and keep your legs crossed next time XD
ReplyDeletei've had may doubts before if i should have 'jumped on board' with steven as early as i did, but at the end of the day it was something you wanted at that point in time, so why beat yourself up over it.