I feel like such an idiot. Why did I wait until now to start thinking about studying? My first exam is in less than 2 weeks, and I still need to get all the notes I've missed, and go over everything I already have. This is ridiculous. Sometimes I wonder why I even bothered with university. I could have worked all this year and gone travelling, I could have done something easier, something achievable. Instead I'm here, where I want to be, but where I don't really belong. It's a waste of money. I already have a debt upwards of 5000 dollars.
Instead of studying I spend my day, usually from 11am-11pm, reading, watching tv shows online, blogging and walking around the city. I should be making notes, making flashcards, drawing up study plans... I need to fix this now. Or maybe tomorrow...
in the risk of being a 'i told you so'er, this is why i suggested you take a gap year. i would LOVE to go to uni too, but only for the atmosphere. i don't want the homework and assignments or the loan which is why i choice against uni.
ReplyDeleteYou could always study part time and work =)
I reckon, if you discover what you REALLY want to do, you don't need motivation because you are already committed.] ;)